2017. At first thought, I would like to light it on fire and send it to the moon. Bye-bye. See ya, later. That’ll teach YOU a lesson, 2017. Hmm. Ok, Maybe not.
In case you didn’t already figure it out - 2017 was a rough year. Situation after situation out of my control required me to work hard on myself, looking constantly to the truths of who God is, so that He could root unbelief, lack of grace, and unrealistic expectations out of my life.
The effort to look at my sin & brokenness (not a pretty sight), build, maintain, and rebuild or completely let go of relationships, sit on the sidelines of other’s lives, and learn to be what seemed stiller than still, felt like it was taking an uncomprehendable toll on me day by day. But as despair finally gave way to recognizing disappointment and fear, I began to call these things unbelief and confess them. As I did, hope and peace began to abound beyond what I ever could have imagined.
If I lit 2017 on fire and sent it to the moon, so much would be lost. My grip on Jesus is tighter (and I’m thankful for His promise to never let me go - John 10:28-29), my marriage is sweeter, relationships are easier, the house is homier, and there’s a sweet boy on the way.
So I choose to lovingly, gratefully, willingly close the doors on 2017 and look toward all that 2018 may bring - trusting solely in Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith.
My hope and prayer for you is that you will be able to look back on 2017 and see it through the eyes of a loving, good God who is incredibly gracious towards you and wants to call you His own if He doesn’t already - and that you will hopefully look forward to 2018 as a year full of His daily new mercies and constant presence.
I am eager to meet with you here again in 2018!