"I wish I could bag it all up forever and drop kick it to the moon.”
I uttered these words today.
And then I laughed.
Moving forward with hard things in life doesn’t happen overnight. It happens in stages.
My friends constantly remind me of that.
Right now I’m in the stage of “I’m so over it.”
I’m over all the little ways it affects my day to day.
I’m done with my irritability.
I’m frustrated by my occasional anxiety.
I’m annoyed that negative day-dreaming still consumes my best hours.
I’m tired of long discussions parsing through hard things.
But there’s also a sweetness to it.
There’s peace in daily dependence on God.
I’m pleasantly surprised by laughter.
I find comfort in God’s Word.
I treasure simple moments with friends and family.
I pray more.
I worry less about seemingly big things.
I trust that God is in control.
I marvel at the ways that God has grown my faith in the last eight years.
I reflect on God’s goodness.
I praise Him for His faithfulness.
I pour another cup of tea.
And I am content.
“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” - Philippians 4:11-13